I'm 22/f/spoken for.
I like video games (namely BIOSHOCK), beer, tattoos, piercings, (some) anime, memes, gifs, art, 90s cartoons, music, and singing.
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I just wanted to make a body image/self image post. Lots of trigger warnings and whatnot, so I’ll just put the appropriate tags and some space between here and my actual post.
The top two images are of myself from 2007 (I believe). Even to date I have trouble looking at those images…I feel like I look fat and ugly and like a fucking piece of shit, and to be honest, I was at my heaviest point in 2007, my junior year of high school. I try to push it out of my mind as much as possible seeing as it was literally the worst year of my life-I tried to kill myself 3 times that year due to my increasing depression and self-hatred. On top of that, I was in an abusive (emotionally and sexually)/controlling relationship that just broke me as a person. And my life continued to spiral out of control.
Eventually, I made some serious changes.
New medication, new diet (not that I’ve ever actually dieted…but I stopped eating so much garbage and switched for healthier options), put my past in the past, got a reduction, changed my look, and started to love me for me.
The bottom two images are from this year. I look at them and think about how great I actually look. I don’t apologize anymore for thinking I look pretty or thinking I look thin. It’s a nice change. I don’t completely loathe the body that I’m in anymore. I could use some work, sure…but I love what I have today.
I just think we are too hard on others (myself included) which warps the mind into believing the untruths told of us daily. I was called fat in high school…a lot…and no one talked to ME; they all talked to my TITS. That’s what I thought I was for the longest time and no one could convince me otherwise. The only person who could speak to me and change my mind…was me.
So I did.